I’ve spent years trying to figure myself out—what’s wrong with me, why I feel the way I do, why I lose jobs and friendships.

I’ve been given labels like depression, anxiety, PTSD, and more, but none of them ever felt like the full story.

Since accepting that I’m autistic, something shifted—and I’m realising there’s nothing “wrong” with me, and for the first time I feel seen, especially by myself.

Recently, I came across something called Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria, and it explains so much about how deeply I feel and react.

I need to do more research on this—I’ll come back to it soon, but for now it finally feels like I’m starting to understand how my brain works and how to manage my thoughts and reactions, rather than trying to change or fix myself.