I wasn’t feeling well last night and couldn’t bring myself to attend a party we had been invited to. My husband said he didn’t feel much like going either but felt he needed to make an appearance for us and give our love to the birthday couple (whom we love very much). He said he…
Tag: depression
A Victory? A small one perhaps
Me: This shower feels amazing. I’m going to stay until the water gets cold Brain: hot water costs money and you don’t deserve to use hot water Me: I don’t care Brain: you should shower in the dark too Me: Fuck you! (Gets out of the shower just before the water goes cold)
POST 12: Worst Anxiety Attack Yet
Yesterday evening I decided to hit the grocery store because they were having a great sale and I didn’t want to miss the last day to scoop up those awesome deals. Everything was great, we got pretty much everything I wanted to grab; but, just as we were at the counter getting ready to check…
POST 11: Avoidance • Laziness • Standstill Cycle
I started my own business several months ago and not a whole lot has happened with it since then — I truly believe in this idea and I know with some hard work I can make a small living for myself and add a little more positivity to world, but for now it sits and…
POST 09: This one is all about my dog!
That crazy cat lady every neighbourhood seems to have, well that was my mom, so needless to say I grew up a cat person. When I left home I took my own adopted kitties with me and never even considered the possibility of getting a dog — I love them (like all animals) but I…
POST 8: I’m a fraud!
I’m fooling everyone and if I’m not careful the world will discover that I’m a fraud — at least that’s what I keep telling myself. Everyday I wake up with inspiration for things I want to do, need to do and would really enjoy doing; but, then I remember ‘oh yeah, I’m a fraud and…
DAY 06: The Problem with Black-Out Curtains
I love my dark curtains, they block out the blinding streetlights at night when I’m trying to fall asleep, unfortunately they do the same with the morning sunshine that should be joyfully coaxing me out of my bed. Both a blessing and a curse black-out curtains are the nemesis of anyone like me who is…
DAY 04: Hmmmm…All My Feelings are “Real”?
It’s common knowledge and pretty widely accepted that many women are “crazy” during various points in their personal moon cycle and I am no exception. I have days when it doesn’t take much to make me angry (what do you mean you’re out of jelly doughnuts!?) or I spontaneously cry over silly things (why…
DAY 03: A good Saturday leads to a guilty Sunday? Not if I can help it!
I often have nice Saturdays full of laughs, wine, lazing around and absolute avoidance of the things that should be done. Usually my fun filled Saturday leads to a guilty Sunday full of regret of what I should have accomplished on Saturday which ultimately turns into not much happening on Sunday. Today as I felt…
DAY 2: Fighting Anxiety
I’ve had them enough to know that it’s not a heart attack, air is indeed getting into my lungs and I’m not going to die — but the first few anxiety attacks were terrifying. This morning instead of just trying to go about my regular activities and ignoring the vice-grip on my heart, shortness of…
DAY 1: Identifying My Top 5 Depression Patterns — So I can Begin Challenging Them!
1. I worry about everything and everyone and I can’t separate myself — my empathy runs too deep. 2. I sleep a lot or not at all, I wake up anxious everyday and I usually don’t tell anyone. 3. I avoid doing the things that need to be done and the things that I enjoy…
DAY 0: Well, it’s a Start!
The patterns of depression are familiar, simple and can be strangely comforting, but I’ve had enough. Hi there, I’m Kim and I struggle with sever depression and not surprisingly (often crippling) anxiety. I’ve decided to write one extremely honest post a day (first goal: 7 days), consisting of five sentences and one picture to help me…
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