It’s common knowledge and pretty widely accepted that many women are “crazy” during various points in their personal moon cycle and I am no exception. 

I have days when it doesn’t take much to make me angry (what do you mean you’re out of jelly doughnuts!?) or I spontaneously cry over silly things (why are Leonard, Raj and Howard so mean to Stuart?) or days when painful cramps are so crippling all I can do is curl up in a ball of self pity (today). 

As a women struggling with mental illness I often question my own feelings — is what I’m feeling because of depression? anxiety? my cycle? or is this a “real” feeling?

However, saying that makes me think that all my feelings are “real” and it’s only how I deal with them that I have control over; so, it’s ok to cry over the silly things (as long as it doesn’t take me down a pit of despair and self-hate) and it’s ok to get angry over little things (as long as I don’t take it out on anyone). 

Feelings are tricky little guys and something I’m going to have to give more thought to, but for now I’m going to curl up in a ball, eat some chocolate and suffer through these damn cramps <ugh!>.