Lately my focus isn’t what it used to be—but I’m working on it.

My mind races on a good day—one topic to another—and I can’t stay focused (unless I’m hyper-focused, but that’s a post for another day). I’m on a journey of discovery, but my thoughts jump so much that it’s hard to remember what I’ve learned or stay on one track long enough to make sense of…

Is it weird that I miss COVID?

While the world went quiet and everyone put each other’s safety ahead of themselves, I found a sense of warmth at home with my little family. It was terrifying at times—my health issues made it feel especially fragile, and my panic attacks were heightened—but it also forced us to slow down and reconnect. My husband…

Describing pain?

I went to the hospital today for an appointment I’ve been waiting about six months for, and I had to answer the most dreaded question I face when I see a doctor: “can you describe the pain?” Ummm yeah… this has always been a weird question for me, because I know it’s not helpful to…

A Victory? A small one perhaps

Me: This shower feels amazing. I’m going to stay until the water gets cold Brain: hot water costs money and you don’t deserve to use hot water Me: I don’t care Brain: you should shower in the dark too Me: Fuck you! (Gets out of the shower just before the water goes cold)

DAY 04: Hmmmm…All My Feelings are “Real”?

It’s common knowledge and pretty widely accepted that many women are “crazy” during various points in their personal moon cycle and I am no exception.   I have days when it doesn’t take much to make me angry (what do you mean you’re out of jelly doughnuts!?) or I spontaneously cry over silly things (why…