POST 11: Avoidance • Laziness • Standstill Cycle

I started my own business several months ago and not a whole lot has happened with it since then — I truly believe in this idea and I know with some hard work I can make a small living for myself and add a little more positivity to world, but for now it sits and…

POST 10: I Made a Mistake Today

Today started out great, waking early without anxiety, feeling positive and looking forward to the sunny warm day ahead, but I did a stupid thing — I read some news articles. Before getting my day started, I was sitting in bed, with the dog at my feet and I grabbed my iPad to play a…

POST 09: This one is all about my dog!

That crazy cat lady every neighbourhood seems to have, well that was my mom, so needless to say I grew up a cat person.  When I left home I took my own adopted kitties with me and never even considered the possibility of getting a dog — I love them (like all animals) but I…

POST 8: I’m a fraud!

I’m fooling everyone and if I’m not careful the world will discover that I’m a fraud — at least that’s what I keep telling myself.  Everyday I wake up with inspiration for things I want to do, need to do and would really enjoy doing; but, then I remember ‘oh yeah, I’m a fraud and…

POST 07: Hmmmm Interesting!

So, today I will have met my goal of writing 7 posts, but I didn’t do it in 7 days as originally planned.  I had forgiven myself for not writing everyday, as even 5 sentences is a lot when you’re challenging yourself and trying to be brutally honest about everything.   BUT when it was…

DAY 06: The Problem with Black-Out Curtains

I love my dark curtains, they block out the blinding streetlights at night when I’m trying to fall asleep, unfortunately they do the same with the morning sunshine that should be joyfully coaxing me out of my bed. Both a blessing and a curse black-out curtains are the nemesis of anyone like me who is…

DAY 05: Okay, I missed Yesterday — But I “fixed” the dishwasher!

My inexperience was in shining form as I struggled to remove two screws from inside our dishwasher which needed to be cleaned…ew! Once the filter screen was removed, I gave it a good scrub in hot and very soapy water, I cleaned out the trap inside the dishwasher and without bothering to throughly rinse the…

DAY 04: Hmmmm…All My Feelings are “Real”?

It’s common knowledge and pretty widely accepted that many women are “crazy” during various points in their personal moon cycle and I am no exception.   I have days when it doesn’t take much to make me angry (what do you mean you’re out of jelly doughnuts!?) or I spontaneously cry over silly things (why…

DAY 2: Fighting Anxiety

I’ve had them enough to know that it’s not a heart attack, air is indeed getting into my lungs and I’m not going to die — but the first few anxiety attacks were terrifying.  This morning instead of just trying to go about my regular activities and ignoring the vice-grip on my heart, shortness of…

DAY 0: Well, it’s a Start!

The patterns of depression are familiar, simple and can be strangely comforting, but I’ve had enough. Hi there, I’m Kim and I struggle with sever depression and not surprisingly (often crippling) anxiety. I’ve decided to write one extremely honest post a day (first goal: 7 days), consisting of five sentences and one picture to help me…